Thinking of a Musical Career.

I’ve not been happy lately. No wait, that doesn’t sound right, I’ve felt like there was something missing recently. There was an empty feeling to which I use to have so much recently.

I was on my way home from the final year project, going up on the bus, with a bunch of other people. I can sense the dullness of the whole thing altogether, right in the bus, I kinda  see the sighs, the faces of boredom, and i don’t know, what else. its just deteriorating to the mind, heart and soul really.

I was looking and trying to imagine seeing myself in their shoes, how much, if i continue this journey, if working in an aviation industry was something I really wanted to be in. Yes, definitely, it would be good for money but what about this —->  ‘:D ‘ . Classmates be telling that they want to be pilots, engineers, airlines, but i can’t really figure it out. I’m glad another one of my friend feels the same way. 

Then this really annoying question comes back to me again, “What am I gonna be? ” , its easy really, but when you’re seriously clueless about what to do, then “houston, we have a problem”

So i ventured out again, and try to imagine something that I would really worth working, something that I can enjoy working, without this feeling of guilt, and start to look through again what I’ve like to do, and yes. I’ve totally forgotten about this until now.

Band in primary school, choir and guitar ensemble in Secondary school, all the piano lesson I’ve been teaching myself through Youtube, Drums, Those productions I’ve stored so much in my hard disk I’ve barely touched it anymore. Electronic Music Production and DJ-ing in polytechnic years. Back then, I’ve had related myself to music. 3rd year came, and after internship, I’ve barely touched the CDJ set anymore. I can see a downward spiral in my mood, focusing on tests, and tests, and project, and tests again, that i forgotten about the one thing i truly care forgotten about, is to breathe and live again to what I’ve not been attending to.

Its going to graduation soon in another 1 month, and I should be going to serve the country for National Service soon. Given much thought this time, I’ve could have just taken the Sonic Arts course when i had wanted it back during year 1. It could have been an amazing experience.

So after all of this, I’ve decided that to truly embrace life and enjoy what I’m doing, I’m going to go and take a diploma in audio engineering and/or music production. Either one or the other. 

I read the book ‘The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari’ and in one of the pages lies a really good wisdom phrase

“Every event has a purpose and every setback its lesson. I have realized that failure, whether of the personal, professional or even spiritual kind, is essential to personal expansion. It brings inner growth and a whole host of psychic rewards. Never regret your past. Rather, embrace it as a teacher that it is.” – Yogi Krishnan



Daily Prompt: That Stings!

Without this book, i might not be who I am today. There was an amount of influence in this that have totally change my life, and I’ve read this book and its sequels, and the one that stings me the most out of all the other books is a book called The Meta Secret.

Browsing at  a bookstore near my area , i was at the self-improvement section, and there it was, right at the corner of my eye, i catch of glimpse of the book, and just something about the book makes me feel “Ok, I’m getting this one today”. Imagine a shiny glow surrounding this book among all the other books stacked in the shelves. (that’s how I see it in my imagination.)

If i were to describe it, it seems that at the point of time, when I was just searching for something more in life, and there was so many questions in my head. Literally, I went to the book, but somehow it was like a sign and this book came to me instead.

During the journey of reading this book, I was so indulged in its work and the pieces that was put together by so many strong individuals. I’ve read the book almost twice, and I’m still learning the secrets that lies within. Whenever I’ve lost a grip,the world is upside-down, this book helped me understand myself  and the universe better. It seems almost that this book is something that life takes upon itself and it made sense to me. I can visualize and see this half story/ half documentary book in my head.

Teachings of Laws of the Universe, and how we play a part in it, a teaching of wisdom, that’s what I manage to understand through it. Talking to an inner-self, allowing myself to express how i feel, that positive vibe, a sensation i can never explain, but just understand were all by this very book. 

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Daily Prompt: Dear Leader

If your government (local or national) accomplishes one thing in 2013, what would you like that to be?

Today’s prompt.

Dear leader, if there was a thing i’d like you to accomplish in 2013, i’d ask you to be more open minded and more creative.
I see the fact that our country is greatly a good economic country and one of the best when it comes to $$$.

but just like a typical man, who’s very very obsessed with money and so protective of itself , the fact that mostly everything that is secure makes life boring. Not to say that its not good, but i think there’s a need for the creative side of the brain to work now. Pay more attention to making the country expressive rather than money making, (sure we need economics still.)

Promote culture, heritage, music, arts. Well we have diversity, we need to bring up something unique.

I see my country ,Singapore as a fine nation but surely there’s something that could be done to improve the overall aspect of a country. We need to take that stand and do something.
The whole country would benefit from it as we allow ourselves to pour out the expressive, emotions that we have kept to ourselves.

Nothing would please me more to see our own music arise from our own country.

Look at your hand.


Yes indeed.  Taking a closer look at your hand, it shows the resemblance, it is these hands that put you to work, to touch, to build roads, bridges and buildings, to write, to send and receive. To learn more and to move and change the world. It works hand in hand with the mind at its best. When i look at mine, and say it to myself, “I’m the creator of my own destiny, I feel a sense of motivation to want to do something and that deep connection with myself makes it even more appreciative to know that, I’m here, I have these, I can do something about myself and make a big difference . Make use of it, and be the person you’ve always wanted to be. Be the creator of your own destiny.